So I'm reading Velvet Elvis by Rob Bell and so far I really like it.
Yesterday, I was killing time at Starbucks before class and I read his section on "Superpastor." For anyone who hasn't read it, he's talking about how superpastor is this perfect pastor who is always available and a great friend and is basically perfect, and how trying to be that was killing him.
So, in reference to his idea...meet Superbailey:

Superbailey is 19 and goes to Auburn University. Last semester she earned a 4.0 GPA and made the dean's list. Superbailey is a member of Alpha Omicron Pi and is very involved with intramurals, philanthropy events, and socials in her sorority. She goes to church every sunday, is in two small group biblestudies, and has lots of great christian friends. She is also a YoungLife leader, a summer camp counselor at Pinecove, and next year's biblestudy leader for the freshmen pledge class of AOII. Superbailey does all of these things while being extremely organized and never forgetting anything. She is busy, but will always make time to have coffee with you. She reads challenging books and listens to great music that most people have never heard. She always has great, interesting blog topics. She also works out every day and always looks nice. But she's never stressed because she is great at being joyful in all situations. Superbailey has it all together.

That makes me want to throw up. I don't know why I've been striving to be superbailey... She doesn't really even look that good on paper. But for some reason that's what I've been after. And nothing good is coming from it.
So today we're killing superbailey.
I dont have it all together, I'm not going to make that 4.0 this semester, and for goodness' sake I refuse to keep wearing pearl earings everyday like every other girl on this campus.
I dont care. I will do my best but thats all I can offer.
I will strive to be the person God wants me to be and thats it.
He loves me as a trainwreck so I might as well embrace it.
...Just thought you should know