i swear if i see one more of those freaking weight loss commercials where the before and after pictures are not the same people at all, im going to shoot my tv. Everything is so centered around looks and celebrities, its a wonder so many people have low self-esteem or eating disorders. To constantly be reminded that you dont look the way you want too is depressing. Why is it that it seems like everything always hits me at exactly the wrong time. All of weaknesses seem to be reaveled and its really starting to annoy me.
I highly doubt that i anything in this blog is spelled right or gramatically correct but i really dont care because i am so tired, i might die. I have gotten 8 hours of sleep over the past three nights. Tuesday night i got to bed around 11 which is somewhat reasonable but because of everything that is going on i couldnt sleep because i was just thinking. so i ended up going to sleep by 4 and had to wake up at 6...thats two hours. Then wednesday night liz spent the night so we could do our stupid cooking project for culture day and we didnt get to my house until 10:30 and with cooking time and everything we fell asleep at 2 to wake up by 6...four hours. Which puts me at 6 hours. Then last night after the football game(s) i slept over at nicoles because its her birthday today ok well really its tomorow but thats ok. The game was amazing!! We won 19-16 with our awesome defense because there was like 2 minutes left on the clock during the 4th quarter and they were 3 yards away from a touchdown. We were so pumped about winning because it was our last game and it was just so much fun. Anyway so we got to nicoles house at like 11 i think then we had to take showers and of course we stayed up talking because thats what we do, until i think around 2 or 3 im not sure and got up at 7...4 hours. So in conclusion i am running on 10 hours of sleep since tuesday. And tonight i am home on a friday night instead of out with my friends so i can sleep because i have to get up at 6 in the morning for the stinkin cross country meet!!! I am not a happy camper this week!!!!!

thought for the night... i dont have one actually so never mind