Its weird to think about the days when i was younger. Like thinking back i can remember tiny bits and pieces of my childhood but not very much. But its crazy to think that just like today is and this week will be for me, thats how those days where at that time. And one day i will think back about these days and only remember bits and pieces of something that is so real to me now. I want those bits and pieces of memories to be good memories, to be something i can look at and smile about. But when i think about the past 4 months or so i dont remember happy bits and pieces. I dont remember the little things that made me smile, i remember the big things that im still dealing with today. I remember the times i went to school in sweats and flip flops because i didnt feel good and didnt want to look nice. I remember the day that i made my best friend cry and didnt even know it, all the times i whined and complained about my problems when there are SO many people going through much more difficult things, and the times i hurt peoples feelings by being selfish and prideful. And then i think a little harder and look a little deeper and remember the times i wish i remember first. The time when my three best friends and i listened to 80's music all night and were laughing so hard that addies dog freaked out and bit nicole, the time when i snuck out of my house to go on a walk in the rain at three in the morning, the time when i woke up at 5:30 in the morning to kidnap addie and take her to breakfast for her birthday and realized in the middle of the resteraunt that there was a giant hole in my pj pants, and the time i couldnt keep a straight face in church because keila and i were laughing about birds. Its weird how fast time goes. Like when i was 6 or 7 i used to dream about being a teenager and it seemed like it would never happen, but now i am one and i barely remember even being 6 or 7. I dont know, that just seems really weird to me, and scary at the same time, because now i cant freaking wait until im out of highschool and away from all of this, but when i get there im going to look back on these four years and only remember bits and pieces of it. I just really hope that i will remember the good things first.