The problem with blogging is there's not always something to write about, so entries are sporadic and somewhat unexpected. But since I don't write every day or every other day even, it feels like I should only write about interesting/important things. And sometimes my life is not interesting and important things aren't happening. But I certainly don't have the time or discipline to blog every day. Hence, a problem.

13 hours in a car by yourself is a long time. A very long time.
And I-20 is a boring road. And Louisiana is an ugly state.
But for the most part, I really didn't mind it. When you're in a sorority and you live in a dorm room and have roommates and suite mates and such...alone time is very hard to come by. So a 13 hour drive by yourself is good for things like prayer, singing like an idiot, prioritizing, day dreaming, and overall decompressing after a long, hard, amazing semester and 5 long, hard, not so amazing finals.
But still, it's a long drive. And sketchy gas stations in the middle of no where aren't the most comforting places for an 18 year old girl by herself. Especially in Mississippi and Louisiana when I have Texas plates and Auburn/AOII stickers on my car.
But I'm home. And I got here safely with very little traffic and not so terrible weather. (Although its MUCH colder here than the 70-degree weather that I left in Auburn). And the sunfire is still holding strong, all 95,860 miles of her. And I am thankful.
So if anyone wants to buy a college girl with a tight budget a cup of coffee between now and January 5th, let me know! =]

I want to blog but my brain is so fried from studying that nothing comes to mind.
The End.

Business calc final today.
Biology Friday.
Psychology Monday.
History Tuesday.
I've been drinking too much coffee, eating too much junk food, and staying up too late.
The library is packed, starbucks is full, and my room is starting to get old. And its raining.

I'm trying to live for today. I want to glorify and serve God TODAY and not waste my time thinking about tomorrow or next week.
But its pretty dang hard to do that when its Christmas season and I'm less than a week from driving home to spend 2 1/2 weeks with my family and friends in Texas.
I'm trying though.

"Now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." When, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, 'If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that.'" James 4:13-15

This morning my pastor spoke about the journey from darkness to light, referencing John 1:3-5:
"Everything was created through him; nothing - not one thing! - came into being without him. What came into existence was Life, and the Life was Light to live by. The Life-Light blazed out of the darkness; the darkness couldn't put it out."
(The Message)
His main focus was on the idea of Christ as this perfect light that: 1. Brings order to chaos, 2. Reveals truth, and 3. Guides us perfectly. As we step out from the darkness and further into the light we see more of how unworthy we are and how loving He is.
The idea isn't entirely new to me. I've heard sermons based around it before. But God let me hear it differently this morning. I think I've let my fears and uncertainties about walking in the Light bring me down recently. When we see how great He is, we see how terrible we are, and I feel like Satan has been delighted to throw my inadequacies in my face.
But this morning I was reminded of where this journey is taking me: perfect fellowship with Christ. While we'll never fully get there until heaven, we can continue to get closer. There's always more to learn. I'm amazed that even though my entire salvation is based on God's grace, I forget that it applies to my everyday failures too. How great is our God.

Tonight I just want to sing and dance and jump and scream and play and praise the Lord.
Praise God for the work He's doing in Auburn.
Praise God for changing hearts and lives.
Praise God for warm clothes and heated buildings.
Praise God for friends and laughter and memories.
Praise God for struggles and fears and trials.
Praise God for His love.
Praise God for His patience.
Praise God for the eternity He's promised us.
Praise God for preparing a place for us.
Praise God for watching us as we sleep.
Praise God for bodies that can jump and sing and dance.
Praise God for clouds and storms and nighttime.

Praise the Lord.