okay well im off to galveston with my friends for the weekend!! i fly back in sunday night and leave monday morning for alabama with the family and hopefully christopher. Yay for vacation and no work! :)
Just thought I'd let you all know what I'll be doing.
And who's proud of me for blogging so much?
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Today my dad turned 46. He is the single most influential person in my life and I love him more than he will ever know. I respect him for the decisions he has made through all the crap he's had to deal with and I love him for his mistakes. He was there when I was born and has raised me ever since. And one day he'll walk me down the isle and I'll have to say goodbye. I'm not good with words but if I was I would tell him how much I truly appreciate every single hug, smile and piece of wisdom he has given me. He has showed me what a loving Christian father and husband looks like and I only hope to marry someone like him. I am so incredibly lucky to have him in my life. He is incredible.
So blog readers, if you see my dad sometime this week make sure to wish him a belated birthday. He's pretty special to me and I'd appreciate it. :)

Brent posted a blog today that I thought was pretty interesting. I stole the questions and filled it out myself. I think if you read it you should fill it out too, it's pretty cool...

::Your Autobiography::

Part 1: The Birth of You--

Were you a planned baby?: Yes and my parents were longing for a girl. So it worked out.
Were you the first?: Nope...they had Brandon before me and then another one after. Yay middle child syndrome!
Were your parents married when you were born?: Yep...and happily so ever since
What is your birthdate? January 17th, 1990

Part 2: The Family--

How would you describe your family?: We've got our issues but at the end of the day we love and care about eachother and thats all we really need.
Are your parents married? yep
What are your siblings names?: Brandon, 19 and Bridget, 10
Which parent do you get along with best?: probably my dad because we have so much in common. But my mom and I don't really fight that much either.

Part 3: The Friends--

Do you have more than one best friend?: definently
What do you like to do when you are together? whatever we feel like at that moment
Do you share the same interests?: not really. we're all into different stuff but it gives us more to talk about so its cool
Which friend can you tell anything to?: there's no one that i tell EVERYTHING to but I'd say I tell most things to chris or keila or addie.

Part 4: Your Personality--

How high/low is your self esteem?: honestly it depends on the day, what I'm wearing, who i'm with, etc.
Do you get depressed about things easily?: yeahh, i pretty much have a big problem with that
Are you happy?: happy is a moment to moment emotion. no one is happy all the time, but if anyone was it wouldn't be me.
Do you live life to the fullest?: I try to.

Part 5: Appearance--

Are you comfortable with the way you look?: i try to be, but theres something about not being a blonde stick that gets me (and the rest of the world) a little down at times
Would you change anything about your apperance if you could? of course but it doesnt matter because i cant
Do you have any piercings? my ears. i used to have more holes in my ears but i let them all grow in except the first ones. too much work.
Describe your hair? it's dark brown and medium ish length. but i plan on cutting and dying it at the end of the sumer.

Part 6: The Past--

Were you a strange child?: I dont think so. At least not compared to my brother.
What did you use to love that you no longer do? play softball.
Do you have the same friends? for the most part. I moved a lot when I was younger so I havent actually "grown up" with the friends I have now, but through middle school and high school they've pretty much stayed the same.
Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing?: Moving in 7th grade due to my dad's unemployment was pretty rough, but I wouldn't say traumatizing...

Part 7: The Future--

What is your dream?: to be happy with myself and how I live my life
Are you scared of growing old? extremely. Losing the family and friends that I have now terrifies me. I never want the "now" to become memory.
Do you want to get married?: very much so. but i feel sorry for who ever ends up with me. im not pretty in the mornings. :)

Part 8: The Outdoors--

Do you prefer indoors or outdoors? depends on what the weather is but living in texas I'd have to say indoors hands down
What is your favorite season: i like them all for a short period of time but i guess i can tolerate fall more than the others
Favorite weather?: storms duh
Do you like walking in the rain?: usually

Part 9: Food--

Are you a vegetarian?: no but i respect those who are
What is your favorite food? probably pancakes
What food makes u wanna gag?: avacados
What is your favorite restaurant?: uhh taco bell, IHOP, Red, Hot, and Blue, or Shoneys

Part 10: Relationships and Love--

Do you think love is the best feeling in the world?: I think the word "love" is so distorted in American culture that you could never ask that question accurately.
Do you believe in love at first sight?: nope.

Part 11: Experiences--

What was one of your greatest experiences? I don't know. I'm still experiencing everything. I'll let you know in a few years.
Have you ever thought you were going to die? I've had a few medical scares in my day and a few times I didn't think I'd make it out of the car I was in but nothing too terrible.

Thanks, Brent.

I've decided I really don't like to title my blogs anymore.

So through the wonderful world of Myspace I am getting the chance to catch up with an old friend from Atlanta after about 5 years with out contact. We were best friends from 1st grade to 4th when I moved to Texas. We kept up for a while and I tried to stop by her house every time we went back, but eventually we just lost touch. However, handy dandy Myspace has a sweet search option that let me find her in a matter of seconds. It's pretty crazy to see how much we've grown up and whats gone on in our lives since we stopped talking.
It's crazy to think about because I know that the people I'm good friends with now will also end up being people that I lose to touch with and have to catch up with one day. I really hate that. I like my friends and I like where I am in highschool. I don't want that to change. I don't want to grow up and have to be friends with people with jobs and kids and husbands...that just doesnt sound like fun to me. So I'm going to stay 16 forever okay? Okay great!!

Okay, okay its been forever since I updated this bad boy, I know. I don't want to let Myspace take over the world, but blogging takes so much more effort and thought than Myspace which is very appealing during the summer.
Nontheless I should be blogging much more often. So today I'll just catch you up on my life and hopefully I'll continue to update after that.

My fears of late:
*Holland. I'm not ready. Spiritually, mentally, physically, or financially. Specifically financially. Thats not a good feeling.
*My Brother. I'm trying so hard to love him and to understand what goes on in his head, but I just can't get to a point where I can accept that he is "bipolar" and that it's a real thing. It's too hard.
*School. This fall I'll be a Junior at Marcus. AKA an upperclassman. AKA scary times ten. I don't want to be old, I don't want to grow up or have to make big decisions about college and majors. No thanks.

Things that make me happy:
*Chris
*My friends
*Not going to school
*My family

Things that dont make me happy:
*PSAT team
*Work
*Not having a car

Things that make me joyful:
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Anyway, thats my life. I hope to be a better blogger in the days and weeks to come but no promises. :) Enjoy your summer! It'll go by too fast!